Ariel Anderssen lives in a big Georgian house in a little Welsh town and spends her days creating homemade tweed outfits, jam tarts, and niche fetish movies. Her marriage is a harmonious delight, her sex life thrilling (though not strictly monogamous), and her past, a quagmire of child abuse and religious zealotry.

At 47, Ariel is at the peak of her career as a submissive BDSM performer, travelling the world to shoot kinky movies with her friends. This year, just like any other, she’s busy with bondage and spanking photoshoots, experimenting with unwise cosmetic procedures and having a series of wildly kinky sexual encounters in hotel rooms across Europe with an enigmatic dominant gentleman.

Unlike any other year, Ariel is also coming to terms with the realisation that she and her two siblings were abused throughout their childhoods.

Traumatic memories from her past threaten her equilibrium as she re-establishes contact with her younger brother and becomes determined to find justice for all three siblings. Her past and present collide, as she addresses the possibility that her experiences of abuse have informed her sexual identity. Will her history make her forever feel DIRTY?

Or this year, can she find a way to feel clean again?

TRIGGER WARNING: this book contains descriptions of sexual violence that some readers may find upsetting.