An insider's true story of the "Orgasm cult.”

At twenty-four, he was broke, anxious, and sexually dysfunctional. A postcard advertising a "Meetup on Female Orgasm" seemed absurd. He went anyway. What he found changed everything.

Within months, he transformed from socially awkward to confident "stroker" living in an orgasm commune in Manhattan. The women were radiant and sexually empowered. The men possessed an almost supernatural ability to "feel" what others wanted. Every conversation was vulnerable. Every moment alive with sensation. It felt like he'd found the cheat codes to human connection.

But there was a price he couldn't see yet.

This raw, untold memoir reveals the real story not covered in Netflix's Orgasm Inc.

The story shows how intelligent people get trapped in high-control groups. How the same methods used to help people can be weaponized to control them. How trauma and transformation can be impossible to separate.

Listen and You'll Learn:

• Sophisticated manipulation techniques used by modern high-control groups — explained from the inside
• The neuroscience and psychology behind charismatic influence, trauma bonding, and groupthink
• Philosophical questions about free will when your desires have been carefully cultivated
• The full arc from FBI investigation through the 2025 criminal conviction with firsthand testimony
• Difficult truths about healing and harm coexisting in the same experience
• Little-known details about power dynamics in matriarchal organizations

Perfect For Listeners Who Loved:

• Educated by Tara Westover
• The Game by Neil Strauss
• Cultish by Amanda Montell
• Wild Wild Country
• Going Clear by Lawrence Wright

Publisher's Note: This is the limited pre-sentencing edition.

Ruwan Meepagala began writing this memoir in 2014, immediately after leaving OneTaste. It has taken over ten years to complete - partly due to legal threats and intimidation, partly due to the complexity of processing an experience where the worst and best years of his life were the same years.

This version covers events through the May 2025 federal trial where Nicole Daedone and Rachel Cherwitz were convicted of forced labor and conspiracy. It will be updated with final sentencing details when available.